New York City - CRUDE - final thoughts - Matthew Middleton November
2006 _____
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You take yerself everywhere you go. Funding will let you take
yerself somewhere else. A guy in the street put it beautifully ----'
yeah Matt's here but he's in his own world though' . But i got me
tickets and dragged my big ugly juno 60 synth with me from Times
Square to Harlem. I'd drag that stupid thing everywhere - adapting
to environs minute to minute, falling apart in the subway stations,
my girlfriend patching me together. We'd sweat acid.
We'd point out rats and cockroaches like a couple of children,we'd
brandish tourist status with every awkward posture. I'd whip out my
wallet
to fumble over countless dollar notes...'don't get yout money out
like that round here mister'.
But we fit in and we stood our ground. In fact, South Dunedin is a
more threatning place. i was here care of the department of the
creative new zealander and I had a job to do.
like a creamy grub smeared across the author
life came a knocking
bobby bee and family -
they did the thinking, the cocking
and soon brilliant stars edged o'er giger scape cities
and they were planes, not space-gas, planes.
and each plane herd and cow container - protein meal musics,
i'll make my walls my walls and not county walls.
cause it's in the authors interest now to retard the metabolism,
to dream a dream and to get up later.
to befoul the presbytarian walls and edges
righteous hedges, hens and the like
silver spikes all dug in and delivery
ma men on the corner all latino and up-right,
hANGIN mistress and lady on the upper floor
make it look like suicide you dig?
to cock the ak-47 skyward and shoot 'em out of the sky, see?
to run into families , pedestrains and soul-foods,
to woman, to woman, to wotan and mt saint hellens,
to st kitts, to pakistan,
rival, revel, glues and boilers.
to divide and rule and grow fringes long and stained charcoal,
to tighten thy jeans and chide thy parent,
to skate, to pierce, to go thou to work,
to americanize thy bowels and chip off the old block
to make piece with piece
to lord it and own that chrysler building - to flip the bird to some
AND love the other
to walk straight, tall, angular, this is the new york smell.
to eat firey leaves , to ask for advice - to learn to tip.
usually %15, see?
any services rendered - especially taxis
always taxis
subway, all scratch and screech, all rat and roach , eyes and
personal spaces and mind reading and wall street , men and men ,
american bowels tight and perfect, holding the bagel smoothb
buns tighter.