Have you guys checked out the trailer for Ashley's new reality show  There
and Back? Reminds me of the good ol' days when MTB was on.  Here's  the link to
the show's site:
_MTV.com  - Onair - There & Back_
(http://www.mtv.com/onair/dyn/there_and_back/series.jhtml) .  It has the
trailer, Ashley's fave videos  and new photos.

Also, check this site out, you can win a $100 Amazon Gift Certificate
tomorrow!
_http://www.thecelebritycafe.com/contests/gift_certificate.html_
(http://www.thecelebritycafe.com/contests/gift_certificate.html)

-Chelle


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Some people maybe knew OTW (O-Town-World.de). We closed that board
some month ago but now we're back. Come and join the new Dan Miller /
O-Town board. Come and support Dan. Of course you can talk about
Jacob, JacobsLoc, Erik, Trevor and Ashley too. Let's talk about the
good old O-Town time. Not only for Germany fans. This board is for
fans all around the world.

www.miller-time-germany.de.vu

Thx for joining.

- Heike -

Hey everyone!

Time is getting really close and I NEED TO get rid of all my O-Town
stuff!! So please if you're interested in anything, have a look at
http://store.untold-secrets.net. There's a list of all my stuff for
sale such as:

- photos
- videos
- dvds
- articles (international)
- news clippings
- poster
- books
- original autographs
- and much more

Please don't reply on this message here, email me at
invierno2301@... if you have any questions or simply sign
the guestbook on the website and I'll get back to you asap!

- Christie
http://store.untold-secrets.net
http://untold-secrets.net

Hey Fellows,

i´m new here. Its awesome that groups are still open!!! Keep running!!
this group is great and i like your pictures...
anybody like to trade O-Town Photos?

join my group to view 3500 selfmade photos....

http://launch.groups.yahoo.com/group/theotowngallery/

O-Town Rocks!!

TOG

Hello everyone. Alright, I've lost 60 lbs within the past few years so
my O-Town tshirt is way to big. I've been searching for places to buy a
new t-shirt, but I just cant seem to find one. If anyone knows where I
can find  shirt besides ebay (i cant find one there thats a small), i
would appreciate it a lot. Thank you so much. If any of you know one,
email me at: xpunkrawkx1005gc@.... please help!

does anyone have a better quality pic of this?

http://img.photobucket.com/albums/v18/whitegina/Ashley20140.jpg

its for a background im making

Hi!

As you can see, I am pretty new to the group so, I'll take a minute
to introduce myself to you guys. My name is Marie and I am from
Quebec, Canada. I have always been a HUGE o-town and general misc
fan. :) I am a veterinary technician and work at a local animal
shelter.

Well, that was my little intro. Now on to the real reason for this
message: I started making these really cool wool bracelets when I
was in high school. I used to give them to my friends and family and
am actually still making them just for the fun of it. One single
bracelet can come in a combination of up to 9 different colors so,
depending on the colors chosen, the bracelet can be classy and
elegant or hip and cool. They are all hand made, one by one, so each
one is unique. By adding little white beans, I can also make the
bracelets spell words and be even more individualized.

So, instead of simply keeping on making a huge pile of them and
keeping them in my closet, I decided to try and sell them. As they
do not cost me much to make or to ship, I am selling each one for as
little as 3$US. So, for 3$US, you could get a bracelet that is
unique, in your nine favourite colors and that can be blank or even
spell "Angel" or anything else that you'd like.

Also, part of the profits will be going to a charity event which
still has to be confirmed.

For picture and more information, check out my website http://hugz-
products.8k.com/

I also own all 3 seasons of MTB on tapes and am also selling copies
of them on my website.

So, with all of that said, if you would be interested in getting a
bracelet (or a few bracelets…or many bracelets) or a vhs tape, if
you have a question/concern/comment, do not hesitate and e-mail me
to marie_thivierge@h...

I'll reply to each e-mail within 48 hours…or at least do my very
best to.

Thank you for taking the time to read this and have a great day!

Marie
xXxX

HEY;

dont forget to add bricks every month for our boys!
you can use all email adresses u hav once a month to add bricks to
the O-Town building!
BRING O-TOWN BACK TO THE TOP!!!!


http://www.topdogcity.com/otown1.htm

ADD YOUR BRICK!
We´re ONLY on 60th!

COMON LADIES!

BETTY

I'm So happy.......finally im a senior in High School and I have
gotten all of my stuff ready and today all of my collgeg stuff is
going to be mailed out and im so happy and i cant wait and they said
it would prolly take a few weeks to get a responce back but where im
taking a year off im gonna have to write them back and tell them im
coming there in a year. and if i dont get in im going to cry!!! but i
cant believe it im going to college!! ill be writing back if i
actually get in!!!!! Rock On!!!


Kim

I know That AShley has gone solo, and so has Tevor(tre-scott) and of
course Jacob has but whats up with Dan, and Erik???

Hey! i just wanna ask u if u maybe knows where i can find again the
fanlistings: Mr. Polyester, Jake 4 U, n Just One Look.
Cause the last time they were hosted at www.dont-play-the-same.org
but that site is no longer anymore...
well, if someone knows where are those fanlistings now, please post
about it!
thnx!
see ya

Hey, Im looking for a Co-founder for my Rascal Flatts Group....do
you wanna be one? Please just e-mail me with this....the only thing
that you have to be is a Rascal Flatts Fan...ok


Name:

E-Mail Address:

Do You have any groups of you own:

If yes Please give me the links:

Do you know how to do graphics:

Do you know how to do HTML:

Anything else that I should know:

Just e-mail this to lildudette8517@...  thanks

Hello! My name is Kimberly and I have just started a Rascel Flatts
Group and I wanted to know if you guys would be so kind and join it
for me....its not much right now but its a start...heres the link
http://launch.groups.yahoo.com/group/SimplieRascelFlatts/
Thanks so much
Kimberly

I just wanted to say hi to everyone.Also,I want to wish Jen a Happy
Birthday!!

APA Fanbase is a group dedicated to the one and the only, Ashley
Parker Angel. We have many many features such as; aim icons, avatars,
QOTW, messageboard signatures, pictures, and much much more! Join
today!

http://groups.yahoo.com/group/apafanbase

Hiya!
Theres a wicked site which sells stuff about all of ur fave stars!
Want real pics from fan meetings? or maybe from concerts? or
interviews and posters from mags?
Including loads of stuff of O-Town!
well this is the right place for ya!
go 2: http://clix.to/popshop
c ya,
-X-

Hey Guys!
I'm here to say that the fanlisting for Ashley (approved by
thefanlistings.org) is finally open! Please join if you're a fan of
Ashley!


www.under-zone.com/ashley

sorry if you get this more than once and sorry if you dont like
people selling things in your group. I am selling mostly all of my
otown things. I have 57 4x6 pictures some of them are of the guys on
stage some of them are at signings but they are all close up,  3
autographed 8x10's, and 1 poster signed by trevor and ashley. I will
scan some of these items for you to see if you wish. But i am selling
all of them as one item i want to get rid of all my things i dont
want to wait around for 100 people to buy things..lol..I am asking
$120 + s&h for all of these things that is not bad for 57 4x6's, 3
autpgraphed 8x10's and 1 signed poster since o-town is no longer and
im sure that they will be worth more one day. i will kind of work
with you on the price IF YOU NEED IT...i am trying to get rid of
these things quick so if you are interested please email me at
onextremegurl@... please dont post back because i might not get
it thats why i need you to email me if you are interested in these
items.like i said i will scan some of the items to let you know what
they look like so if you are interested let me know.
Rachel

Hi O-Lovers,

a brand new group has his OPENING!
"supportforashley" its new and m m m !!

Ashley´s goin solo and we all support his Solo Career to become the
top of music industry.
Still waiting for his 1st solo alb, you can meet new friends here,
post messages and discuss bout his "hair" *LOL* or everything else...

We have: *lot of photos
          *polls
          *soundfiles/videos (comin soon)
          *activities
          *....and so on

Join today!

http://launch.groups.yahoo.com/group/supportforashley/

Betty
*founder*
(if u like to become a mod just ask me and tell me what u can do for
the group)

Hello guys!

I recently refinanced my home. I am self employed and this has been a trying
task for me. They have some of the lowest interest rates available on the market
today. <a href="http://qu0t3n0w1.tripod.com/">Check them out</a>. They helped
me! I bet they can help you and save you alot of money no matter your current
financial situation. Give them a try I did.
<a href="http://qu0t3n0w1.tripod.com/">Press this link now and start saving
money.</a>

Hi, I have some O-Town stuff that I need to get rid of as I'm moving.
It's:

- 3 posters
- 4 full pages
- 2 smaller clippings

Everything's in excellent condition and with pictures. I'm selling
everything together for $3. If interested please e-mail me:
laura7@...

Hi, OTownWorldwide has made my top 10 list of groups, I'd like to
invite all members to check out my group!

http://groups.yahoo.com/group/SLyCe_Promotions/

Its a great collection of the coolist Yahoo! Groups around.
Thanks
Mike

Helloooooo!!!


     Ok... chapter 35 here, people...
     I'm almost done with my hospital scenes. Thank God, because they were
just... stealing all the happiness from my body. LoL The hospital parts were
just too emotional, u know? But things are gonna start to get lighter... I
hope so, anyway! hehehe
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~*~ Chapter 35 ~*~

    NEW YORK CITY, NY – HOSPITAL – MAR. 17TH, 2002 – SUNDAY

             “Hey, where’s Tom?” Grace asked when she came back from
Kirstin’s hospital room.
             “He left a while ago.” Ashley told her.
“Why?” Grace wondered.
“He said he wouldn’t be able to control himself, he would fall apart right
in front of Kirstin and he didn’t want her to see him like that.”
“Oh… yeah, Kirstin needs us to be strong for her. But… poor Tom.”
“Yeah…” Ashley nodded.
“Are you two ok? It seems everything is ok.” Grace sat beside Ashley on the
couch.
“Yeah, we’re fine. We can at least stand to be around each other now.”
Ashley chuckled.
“Oh, that’s… good.” Grace smiled weakly.
“No, we’re fine. Really. He just asked my apologies for all the things he
did to me while he was dating Kirstin.”
“Really?” Grace raised her eyebrows.
“Yeah… I guess he’s changed.” Ashley faced Grace.
“I always knew he was a great guy. That’s why I was so shocked when Kirstin
told me he had cheated on her.”
“Yeah, that was bad. For him, I’m guessing. Not so much for me. I got the
girl because of that.” Ashley smiled down.
“Yeah. I don’t know why he did it. I don’t even think he knows why. He loved
Kirstin too much.”
“He still does.” Ashley corrected Grace.
“What?” Grace frowned.
“He still loves her. He told me and I can feel it too.”
“Really? Wow…”
“Yeah…” Ashley nodded.
“Poor Tom.” Grace repeated.
“Yeah…” Ashley continued nodding “What time is it?”
“7:30 p.m.” Grace answered.
“Wow. Already?” Grace nodded “Wow, time just passed too fast.”
“Yeah…” Grace nodded.
“Grace?” Ashley asked looking at her and a tear falling down her face
“What’s wrong?”
“Oh, nothing. I’m just silly. I know you guys should be crying, you lost the
baby, it was your baby, not mine. But I can’t help but to feel sad.”
“Oh, Grace, come on! Of course it was your baby too! Or you don’t think you
were gonna be his cool aunt Grace?”
“I guess…” Grace giggled.
“See? He was your baby too. And you have all the right to be sad. He was
everybody’s baby. And he is…” Ashley wasn’t still used to talking about the
baby in the past tense “And he would have been so lucky, he’d be so loved.”
“Yes, he would.” Grace nodded.
“Yeah…”
“Why did something like this have to happen, Ash?” Grace questioned.
“I don’t know, G. I seriously don’t. I guess only God knows.” Ashley wiped a
tear away as soon as it fell down his cheek.
“Why? I mean, Kirstin is such a great girl. You and Tom are such great boys.
There’s no reason we should be hurting like we are now.”
“There’s a reason, G. I don’t know what it is. But there is one. Otherwise
it wouldn’t have happened.”
“Oh, only you and Kirstin believe in this whole fate thing. I can’t honestly
believe there’s a reason for this being happening. It can’t honestly be part
of some bigger plan. And if it is, it’s just cruelty. Pure cruelty.”
“Grace, let’s not put our faith to test, here, alright? We can’t be
questioning why this happened. Because we won’t get an answer. You’ll just
go crazy. Let’s just… forget about it, alright?”
“But it’s so hard!” Grace couldn’t stop crying.
“Oh, I know. Believe me, I know. But we just gotta stop thinking about a
reason, ok? Let it be.”
“Ok.” Grace looked up at him “You’re just too strong. For all of us. I don’t
know how you do it. How you manage to be strong for all of us and for you
too. You’re perfect, you know? You’re just what Kirstin needs. A perfect guy
to be around her.”
“Oh, it’s hard. Believe me, it’s not easy. At all.” Ashley stated and Grace
smirked at him “But I bet Mister Baseball Player is pretty perfect too.”
Ashley smirked at her.
“Yes, he is.” Grace looked down, a little embarrassed.
“Good. Because you’re such a good girl too. You deserve someone good. I was
afraid at first when Kirstin told me you were with him.”
“Why’s that?” Grace frowned at him.
“Because of that whole… Barry thing.”
“Oh…”
“Yeah… And them being friends, I was worried your guy…”
“Mark.” Grace informed.
“Yes, Mark. Thank you! I don’t think Kirstin ever told me the guy’s name.
Anyways… I was afraid Mark would be just like Barry.”
“No, he’s perfect. He’s really romantic.”
“Good. That’s what you deserve.” Ashley smiled at her “Come here.” Ashley
hugged Grace to make her feel better, because tears were still falling from
her eyes.

“Do you think we should go look again to see if she’s awake?” Grace asked
after 50 minutes. They had been going to the room every 15 minutes to check
if Kirstin had woken up.
“Yeah, sure, let’s go.” Ashley propped himself up.

“Nope, nothing.” Ashley said after looking through the glass window “Oh,
let’s go inside, the both of us. If they say anything, we’ll leave.”
“Ok.” Grace agreed and they both headed inside the room.
Ashley sat in the chair beside Kirstin’s bed and Grace sat in a couch that
was in front of the bed.

“Look, she’s waking up!” Grace pointed out after 15 minutes when she saw
Kirstin moving for the first time in her bed.
“Yes.” Ashley noticed too “K, baby, can you talk to me?”
Kirstin opened her eyes and instantly placed her hand over her belly. She
started to cried right away.

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okay, when did otown breakup and where is erick  ow? what is he
doing?

Hey...


     Ok... So here's chapter 39. I'm sending this now because Krissie asked
me to. Happy? hehehe
     This chapter is kinda... cute, I think. :) Dont forget to send me your
reviews!!!! My email addy! yourfanfiction@... or sign my guestbook at
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~*~ Chapter 39 ~*~

    CHICAGO, IL – AIRPORT – MAR. 21TH, 2002 – THURSDAY

             Kirstin and Ashley arrived at Chicago’s airport from New York.
They were gonna meet the others at the airport and go straight to the hotel.
             “There they are.” Ashley pointed to a group of guys that were
getting off at one gate.
Ashley and Kirstin went in their direction as some girls started to gather
around the four guys.
“Hey!” Dan exclaimed as soon as he saw Ashley.
When Dan said that, all the girls looked where Dan was looking. Seeing
Ashley there, most of the girls just left their spot and went directly
towards him. There were only six girls around Ashley, but they were all so
excited that they made Kirstin feel a bit too awkward and she stepped back a
little, giving the girls and Ashley some room to take pictures with the
girls and give autographs.
Kirstin watched that scene with a smile. All the five guys were actually
really nice to the girls. They were all signing papers and taking pictures
and they didn’t seem to bother doing all that. Then a frown suddenly formed
on Kirstin’s face. Now she would have to face Ashley’s fans, something she
never actually had to go through. How would they react? Would they hate her?
What would happen?
“Ashley, that girl you that came with… is she your girlfriend?” a girl that
seemed to be around 14 years old asked Ashley as she pointed to Kirstin a
few steps behind them.
“Oh… That girl?” Ashley asked looking at Kirstin frowning and with her arms
wrapped in front of her chest “Yes. Yes, she is.” he smiled lovingly at her.
“Cool.” the girl answered and after getting what she wanted from Ashley,
went into Kirstin’s direction with another friend beside her “Ashley said
you’re his girlfriend.” the girl informed as she approached Kirstin.
“Oh…” Kirstin was taken totally off guard “He did?” Kirstin asked and both
girls just nodded “Yeah, well… I am.”
“Cool. Can we take a picture with you?” one of the girls asked.
“I’m…” Kirstin didn’t know how to react. No one she didn’t know before had
ever asked to take a picture with her. It felt strange. Why would they want
her picture? “I guess.” she smiled as one of the girls got closer to her
wrapping her right arm around Kirstin’s waist. Kirstin smiled down at her
and wrapped her arm around the girl’s waist as well. Kirstin then turned and
smiled to the camera.
“My turn.” the girl that had just taken the picture informed. She got next
to Kirstin and did the same as her friend did “Thank you.” she said when her
friend had taken the picture for her.
“No problem.” Kirstin smiled at both girls.
“What’s your name?” one of the girls asked.
“Kirstin. What’s yours?”
“I’m Kelly and this is Jenna.”
“My sister’s name is Kelly.” Kirstin kept her smile during the whole
conversation.
“Cool.” Kelly said “You’re so pretty.”
“Oh, you think?” both girls nodded. Kirstin was starting to get really
embarrassed “Well, thank you.”
“No problem.” Kelly added.
“Well, thank you, Kirstin. Bye.” Jenna thanked and then the two of them left


“See you got some fans for yourself.” Ashley wrapped his arms around Kirstin
from behind after the girl left the spot.
“God, Ash, you scared me.” Kirstin turned to look at him and playfully hit
him in the arm.
“Sorry. But were the girls nice to you?” Ashley asked and pulled her closer
to him, wrapping his arms around her waist.
“Yes, they were pretty nice. They told me you told them I’m your girlfriend.
And that I’m pretty.”
“Well, you are both those things, aren’t you?” Ashley pecked her on the lips

“Yes. Especially the pretty part.” Kirstin smirked and Ashley placed a
little kiss on her nose “But… I didn’t know you were gonna… like… tell your
fans that you have a girlfriend now. I thought you had an image to keep.”
“I do. But I don’t wanna have to hide you. And you’re a pretty girl as they
already said, so I’m pretty sure I’m gonna be fine. My image won’t be
destroyed with you by my side.” Ashley grinned “But, if you’re not so ok
with that, I can…”
“No, no, no. It’s fine. I just didn’t know if you were cool about that.”
“I don’t care, K. I just wanna be with you and let everybody knows that the
most beautiful girl in this world is with me and nobody else.”
“Oh, silly.” Kirstin pecked him on the lips.
“Oh, they are leaving. Come on, let’s go.” Ashley grabbed Kirstin’s hand and his
bag and headed to the limo waiting for the guys outside the airport.

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Hey people...


     Sorry it took me a long time to send you guys this chapter. One of the
girls that corrects my fic for me got a problem with her PC so... I just got
the corrected version from her. Sorry!
     So... anyways... here's chapter 33... a lot of people are expecting this
  I guess... hope u all like it. Dont forget to send me your reviews...
yourfanfic@... or http://myfanfictionsite.cjb.net
     Hope to hear from u all soon!
     Love
     Fernanda

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~*~ Chapter 33 ~*~

    NEW YORK CITY, NY – HOSPITAL – MAR. 17TH, 2002 – SUNDAY

             “NO!” Tom placed both his hands on his head and just shook it.
He couldn’t believe he had lost his baby.
             Ashley inhaled and exhaled quickly and kept shaking his head.
Grace just kept looking at the doctor and cried.
“I’m really sorry she lost her baby.” the doctor said, but not one was
actually paying attention to him “Now, if you’ll excuse me, I have to go.
Kirstin will be back in her room in an hour, an hour and a half.” he turned
and left the place.

An hour had gone by. Ashley had returned from the chapel and was now pacing
around. Grace still sat in the same spot she was when the doctor left and
Tom was sitting on the floor, his legs to his chest and his head placed on
his knees.
Grace then stood up and left. Tom heard her getting up and looked up. He saw
her leaving, but didn’t even bother asking her where she was going. The same
happened to Ashley, he just saw her leave.

After a while, Grace showed up holding 2 cups of coffee.
“Here.” she lightly kicked Tom’s feet and handed him the coffee when he
looked up at her.
“Thanks.” he thanked getting the coffee and taking a sip out of it.
“Here.” she handed Ashley another cup.
“Thank you.” he thanked Grace and just sat down beside her.
“Ash, Tom.” Grace said and both stared at her “I know this is much harder
for you boys then it is for me. I know that. But I know it’s gonna be ten
times worse for Kirstin.” Tom looked down and Ashley played with his fingers
“So, when she gets here, can you just, like… be strong? For her, I mean? She
can’t have three friends by her side that are falling apart. We have to be
strong for her, because no one else will and she is gonna need us more than
anytime.”
“You’re right.” Ashley placed his hand on her knee to support her. Ashley
knew it wasn’t easy on Grace to say that. Ashley could seethe tears forming
and falling from Grace’s eyes.
“Yeah.” Tom just nodded.
“Ok. I’m glad you guys agree to that. We gotta be there for Kirstin.” Grace
said.
“Totally.” Tom added and just kept nodding.

After what seemed to have been another hour later, Claire, the nurse, came
into view bringing Kirstin in a gurney. The three of them stood up abruptly
and, in silence, followed the nurse and Kirstin inside the room.
Claire, with the help of Tom, carried Kirstin and placed her on the hospital
bed.
             “She’s really weak and heavily medicated.” Claire informed the
trio “So, I think she’ll be out for another hour or even two. As you two
can’t be here in the room with her, I recommend you both wait in the waiting
room or leave and come back later.” Claire told Grace and Tom.
             “I’m staying, G. What about you?” Tom asked Grace.
             “I’m staying too, of course.” Grace nodded at him.
             “Great. Then if you’ll follow me.” Claire said.
             “I’ll just talk to her for a while and then I’ll meet you guys
outside, alright?” Ashley informed Grace and Tom.
             “Sure. Cool.” Tom said and left with Grace by his side.
             Ashley took a deep breath and placed the chair beside Kirstin’s
bed. He took her hand and wanted to start talking, but instead of words,
just tears took him over.
             “K, baby. God, this is too hard.” he managed to get out through
the tears “I’m pretty sure you know what happened by now.” tears were taking
over his face as he placed his hand gently on her belly “Our baby is gone.
He just… no more.” Ashley shook his head. How could the baby be there one
minute and the other, just disappear? Ashley still couldn’t believe it as he
looked at Kirstin’s belly. It didn’t have the lump it had when the baby was
there “K, I know this is gonna be unbelievably difficult. And it’s not only
difficult for you, but for me too. And Tom and Grace. We were devastated
when the doctor told us. But I just want you to know that we’ll be here to
you. You don’t have to suffer any more than you already have. We’re gonna be
here for you to support you and to love you. We’re gonna get through this
just as we always get through everything. This is gonna be much harder and
we both know it, but we also know that our love is too strong and we’ll be
able to go over this if we stay together. I didn’t wanna go through this,
but God didn’t give us any another option. So we’re gonna have to do this.
And I just want you to know that you’ll always have me by your side, ok?
Whenever you turn around, I’ll be there. I’m never leaving you.” another
tear fell as he kissed her lips tenderly “I love you.” he said in her ears
“I’m gonna talk to Tom and Grace now, but I’ll be back before you wake up.
Don’t worry.” he brushed a lock of her hair away from her face and left the
room.

             “So, man?” Tom asked as soon as Ashley sat beside him on couch
in the waiting room.
             “Oh, this is tough.” Ashley shook his head and placed it between
his hands.
             “Oh, yes.” Tom’s face was horrible. His hair was a mess, his
eyes and nose were red from crying and he still had some tears down his
cheeks.
             “Why don’t you go talk to her? She can listen, you know? Go talk
to her. I’m pretty sure there’s no problem each one of us talking to her if
there’s only one person in the room.” Ashley informed.
             “You think?” Tom questioned.
             “Yeah, I’m pretty sure. But just to be totally sure, talk to
Claire over there.” Ashley pointed to Claire that was just emerging from a
room.
             “Ok, I’ll do that. Then you can go after me, G.” Tom looked at
his friend.
             “Oh, I wanna talk to her so much.” Grace wiped the tears away
from her face.
             “Ok. Let me go.” Tom turned and trailed to Claire.
             “Oh, apparently it’s ok, see?” Ashley pointed to Grace at Tom
heading to the room after talking to Claire.
             “Oh, good! Then I’m next.” Grace seemed to be a little bit more
excited.

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Hello everyone...

     Here's chapter 36. Not much to say here, other than ENJOY IT!
     Also... REVIEW!!! yourfanfic@... or http://myfanfictionsite.cjb
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~*~ Chapter 36 ~*~

    NEW YORK CITY, NY – HOSPITAL – MAR. 17TH, 2002 – SUNDAY

             “Oh, no, God!” Kirstin exclaimed “I can’t feel him anymore. My
baby is not here anymore.” Kirstin was crying unstoppable. Grace turned
around so Kirstin wouldn’t notice the tears falling down her face. Ashley
was staying strong.
             “Kirstin, baby, listen…” Ashley started, but got cut off by
Kirstin.
             “No, Ashley. You don’t have to say anything. I can feel he’s no
longer here. I can feel there’s nothing inside me anymore.” Kirstin couldn’t
stop the tears. It was a weird feeling. Before she was taken to the tests,
she could feel the baby moving inside of her. But now, he had stopped.
Nothing moved. She felt nothing. It felt really weird.
             “K, baby, I’m so sorry.” Ashley started again “But I’m here for
you.”
             “Yes, K, we’re all here for here.” Grace wiped the tears from
her face before facing her friend.
             “Where’s Tom?” Kirstin frowned.
             “He left.” Ashley looked into her eyes “It was just too
difficult for him. He didn’t want you to see him feeling bad because it
would make you feel bad.”
             “I feel bad anyways!” Kirstin snapped “I lost my baby!” Kirstin
pressed her belly with both her hands and cried even harder, if that was
possible.
             “K, baby…” Ashley was having a hard time hanging in there seeing
Kirstin like that “K, baby, look at me.” Ashley grabbed her wrist and pulled
her hand to him “Everything is gonna be ok.” he tried to comfort her.
             “Of course it won’t, Ashley! Shut up! You have no idea what
you’re talking about! My baby is dead! Dead! And how can you tell me
everything will be ok? NOTHING will be ok!” Kirstin shouted at Ashley. Now
Grace had lost it. She couldn’t control it anymore, so she just left the
room.
             “K, baby, for the love of God, you have to control yourself.”
             “Oh, yeah? Why? I just lost my baby, I think I have the right to
freak out if I want to.” Kirstin wouldn’t stop yelling and crying.
             “I lost my baby too. Tom lost his baby too. It was not only you
that lost this baby, Kirstin!”
             “No, it was mine! I was carrying it!”
             “Kirstin, listen to yourself! You’re not being reasonable right
now! Yes, you were carrying it, but he was everyone’s baby. Everyone loved
this baby. He wasn’t even born yet and we loved him so much.”
             “I loved him, Ashley. I did.” Kirstin whispered and pressed her
belly again “My baby boy. I loved my baby boy.”
             “I know, honey, I know.” he got up and leaned in to hug her
“Shhhh… I’m here.” Ashley tried to keep Kirstin’s emotions under control
while he was trying to control his own “That’s ok. We’re gonna get through
this.”
             “I know. You’ve told me that already.” Kirstin was apparently
calmer. Ashley pulled back from the hug a little and looked her in the eyes.
             “You heard me?”
             “Yeah… I heard everything. Your talk, Tom’s talk, Grace’s talk.”
Kirstin pulled Ashley to her and hugged him tighter.
             “Shh… That’s ok.” Ashley stroke her hair as her head was on his
shoulder.
             “I wanna talk to Tom.” Kirstin said.
             “You do?” Ashley frowned and pulled back a little to look at her
again.
             “Yes…” she nodded.
             “What did he say to you?” Ashley asked.
             “A lot. And I wanna tell him that I heard everything he told me.
And that I forgive him.”
             “Forgive him for what?” Ashley frowned.
             “For… well… doing what he did to me.”
             “Oh, you do?” Ashley frowned “Forgive him, I mean?”
             “Yes… after everything he told me, I can’t really not forgive
him. I know he didn’t mean to hurt me. He was just confused. And I guess we
all get confused sometime down the road.”
             “I guess… But what else did he say to you?” Ashley was kind of
worried about their talk. He didn’t know Tom’s talk had made such an impact
on Kirstin. He pulled Kirstin closer to him and kept on stroking her hair.
             “Oh, just stuff. About our lives together. How happy he was when
we were together and stuff like that.”
             “Oh…” Ashley sounded worried.
             “And how he knew better than I did that I’ve loved you even when
we were together.”
             “He actually said that?” Ashley pulled her back again.
             “Yes…” Kirstin nodded and placed her head again on Ashley’s
shoulder.
             “Wow…” Ashley just frowned.
             “Yeah…” Kirstin just kept nodding “My baby...” Kirstin started
to feel bad about the baby again and kept crying uncontrollably.
             “K, dear… Don’t feel so bad. I’m not leaving you. We’re gonna be
strong and we’ll let that behind us. We’ll move on.”
             “But what if I don’t wanna move on, Ash? I don’t wanna forget
our baby.” Kirstin wiped the tears away from her cheeks.
             “We won’t forget our baby. We are just gonna let go of this
terrible pain we have right now. This feeling that is burning inside us
right now.”
             “You feel that too? The burning?” Kirstin asked tenderly.
             “Of course, K.” Ashley let a tear fall down his cheek. Kirstin
wiped it away with her thumb.
             “I know you’re trying to stay strong for both of us, Ash.”
             “I don’t…” Ashley started but Kirstin cut him off.
             “That’s ok. You don’t have to try and convince me I’m wrong. I
know you’re just as hurt as I am. And I really appreciate you’re being
strong for both of us. Because I know I’m gonna need that, Ash. More than
I’ve ever needed you. I’m gonna need your strength.”
             “And don’t worry, because you’re gonna have me. I’m not letting
you go through this alone.”
             “I love you, Ash.”
             “I love you too, K.” Ashley leaned in and kissed Kirstin
passionately.

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Ok... I feel generous today, so I'm sending chapter 41 already. But, dont
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~*~ Chapter 41 ~*~

    DENVER, CO – AIRPORT – MAR. 30th, 2002 – SATURDAY

             The O-Town gang plus Kirstin and the management team were going
to Denver from Cleveland. From the past 10 days, they have been to Chicago,
Indianapolis, Detroit, Cleveland and now Denver. After their stay in Denver,
they were heading to Salt Lake City and then Redding.
Now they were collecting their luggage and heading outside.
             As usual, a little crowd, that included mostly girls, was
waiting outside the departure gate as the guys headed out. A few screams
were heard and then the girls gathered around O-Town.
             Kirstin was used to that already. And when 3 girls approached
her to get their pictures taken with her, she didn’t feel awkward anymore.
In the past interviews, Ashley had told the interviewer’s that he had a
girlfriend and that she was currently touring with him. Kirstin couldn’t
know if the fans were ok with that, but they seemed nice when they’d usually
approach her to get their pictures taken.

             “My God, I’m freezing here!” Kirstin exclaimed and rubbed her
arms to warm her up. She was talking to Trevor, who was right beside her.
Ashley and the others were too entertained with the too many girls around
them.
             “Girl, we’re inside. Wait until we go outside. Then you’ll see
what the word freezing is all about.” Trevor smiled at her and placed his
arms around her, squeezing her. Kirstin just giggled.
             Kirstin was getting along just fine with the other O-Town guys.
No wonder, if you consider she had spent the previous days sharing a
bathroom with them in the bus. The only one she didn’t really have much to
talk about was Jacob. But she couldn’t complain about him. He was nice to
her. And she was nice to him.
             “Hey, hey! What’s going on here? What’s this all about?” Ashley
played the jealous boyfriend for Kirstin and Trevor.
             “Oh, you didn’t know? We’re together now. Right behind your back
  Thought you had figured that out already.” Kirstin joked and wrapped her
arms around Trevor’s waist.
             “Yeah, man. You didn’t seriously think she’d resist me for too
long, did you?” Trevor wrapped his arms around Kirstin too.
             “Yeah, yeah, ok. Now you two are scaring me here. No playing no
more.” Ashley separated Kirstin and Trevor and the both of them just laughed

             “Relax, man.” Trevor raised both his hands in a defensive
gesture.
             “Ok, now, keep moving, keep moving.” Ashley smirked and hugged
Kirstin from behind, motioning for Trevor to head outside.

             “Oh, my God! You were totally right, Trev. Now I know what the
word freezing means. My God, it’s too cold outside!” Kirstin said when they
got inside the limo.
             “It’s Colorado, baby. You didn’t think there would be a hot sun
above us, did you?” Erik asked.
             “No, but… Clearly, I didn’t think anything.” Kirstin grinned and
cuddled with Ashley to get warmer.


    DENVER, CO – HOTEL – MAR. 30th, 2002 – SATURDAY

             It was 9:30 p.m. already and Kirstin was waiting for Ashley to
get back from the radio interview he had gone to 3 hours earlier.
             She got bored waiting for him so she decided to take a nice and
warm bath.
             Kirstin was still trying to remain warm. It wasn’t even winter
and still the weather was too cold.
             She turned the hot water on and waited until the bathtub was
full. She took her clothes off and got in. She stayed in the tub, just lying
there for a while. She was just thinking about her life and the changes she
had been through the last few of months.
             She had gotten with Ashley, who she was 100% sure now that was
the love of her life; she had gotten pregnant, she had loved the feeling and
the thought of a baby inside her. And then the worst happened. She had lost
it. She had lost the little boy that was forming inside of her. But she got
nothing but support from her 3 best friends. Grace was great, always there
for her as a true best friend would always be. Tom. Tom had become such a…
nice surprise for her. Not only he apologized for hurting Kirstin, but he
was now really being a friend for her. He’d be there whenever she’d need him
  He’d take care of her too, in case Ashley wasn’t around. Tom was gonna be
the perfect friend he was before they got together. And then Ashley. She
couldn’t help but smile whenever she’d think of Ashley. Ashley was just… the
angel in her life. No matter how hard she’d push him away, he’d always come
back, trying to get her to see he was the man for her. And now she saw it.
Like crystal water. Ashley was the man Kirstin ever longed for. He loved her
too much and he’d never give up on her. He was her harbor, her rock, her
angel… Ashley was her everything. And he would never hurt her. She smiled.
Aside from some traumas she’d been through, she couldn’t complain about her
life.  Her life was perfect.

             After washing her hair, she got out of the tub, dried her body
with a towel, put her lingerie on and wrapped herself in a robe.
             She got out of the bathroom and was drying her hair with a towel
when she heard the door opening.
             “Hey.” she greeted Ashley coming inside the room.
             “Hey.” he said, heading to her direction.
             “So, how was your day?” Kirstin asked and dropped the towel on a
chair next to her.
             “Crappy. I turned around and you weren’t there.” Ashley pouted.
             “Oh, don’t pout. I hate it when you do it because you look so…
irresistible.” Kirstin got closer to him and placed a kiss on his lips.
             “Well…” Ashley took a step back and looked her up and down “You
look pretty irresistible too wearing this robe.” Ashley smiled and took a
step closer to Kirstin again.
             “Really? Irresistible, huh?” Kirstin wrapped her arms around
Ashley’s neck.
             “No. Pretty irresistible.” Ashley grinned and leaned in to kiss
her.
             Their bodies were glued together. Kirstin moaned when she felt
Ashley’s tongue part her lips. Ashley smiled when he heard her moan and
placed his hands down her waist. Kirstin’s hands were stroking Ashley’s hair
  ‘Damn, Ashley knows how to kiss!’ she thought when their tongues touched.
             In a sudden move, Kirstin pulled Ashley’s shirt off and tossed
it aside. Their lips met again and soon their tongues were touching. Then
Ashley left Kirstin’s mouth and trailed down to her neck. Kirstin moaned
lightly. Ashley slowly untied the knot on Kirstin’s robe. Kirstin took
Ashley’s belt off. Then it was Ashley’s turn to take Kirstin’s robe off,
never leaving her mouth. He kissed her passionately and could now feel
Kirstin’s hot body in his. He slowly left her mouth and kissed her
collarbone. Then he took a step back.
             “Oh, my…” he took a deep breath. Kirstin just watched Ashley
looking her up and down with his eyes filled with desire “You are absolutely
breath taking.”
             “You’re not too bad yourself.” Kirstin grinned and pulled him to
her, kissing him hungrily.
             Ashley got rid of his pants and not leaving Kirstin’s mouth, led
her to bed. He placed her slowly on the bed with his right hand behind her
head.
             Their kisses because more passionate and when Kirstin’s arched
her body, she felt Ashley’s arousal. She then suddenly pulled him back,
making him almost drop off the bed.
             “What’s wrong, Kirstin?” Ashley sat up behind Kirstin and looked
worried at her.
             “Nothing.” Kirstin was sitting by the foot of the bed, her head
held down.
             “Something is wrong. What is it, baby?” Ashley stroked Kirstin’s
back.
             “I…” Kirstin didn’t wanna upset Ashley. He sure wanted to have
sex and she had to ruin that.
             “What is it, K? Now you’re getting me worried.”
             “I’m… I think I’m still… I’m not ready for it… yet. After… You
know?” Kirstin faced Ashley with an apologetic look. Ashley just smiled
sweetly at her.
             “Oh, baby, come here.” he hugged her tight “That’s alright. I
can understand.”
             “Really? You’re not like… mad at me or something?” Kirstin
hugged him tighter.
             “Mad? Why would I be mad?”
             “Because you were clearly up for it. I ruined it for you.”
             “K, you didn’t ruin anything. I don’t wanna do anything you
still don’t feel ready for. I can wait. That’s not a problem.”
             “Really? Because I really am sorry, but I just… couldn’t. Like…
when I felt… your, well… I…”
             “That’s ok. You don’t have to explain me. You are not ready yet
and I totally understand.” Ashley stroked Kirstin’s hair.
             “Thank you.” Kirstin looked up at him “I love you.”
             “Oh, I love you too, baby.” he pecked her lips.
             “Can we just… cuddle?” Kirstin asked him.
             “Of course! Let’s.” Ashley slid under the covers and so did
Kirstin “Oh… I wanted to talk to you about something.”
             “What?” Kirstin asked, pulling away from him.
             “This…” Ashley took the covers off Kirstin and lowered her
panties a little “Tattoo. This bothers me a little, you know?”
             “Why?” Kirstin asked, rubbing her tattoo with her thumb.
             “Because… ok, it’s a heart. And the big problem is this chain
and this lock here. I know it’s suppose to be your heart. And I don’t think
that’s right anymore.”
             “I guess…” Kirstin frowned. Her tattoo was so little and in a
place she could hardly notice that she’d sometimes forget she even had a
tattoo.
             “I mean… do you really feel like your heart is still locked? No
one is allowed in there?”
             “Well… someone broke the chain a while ago.” Kirstin smirked.
             “Really? Who’s that person? I’d like to meet him.” Ashley
smirked back.
             “Well, perhaps you will meet him.” Kirstin pecked his lips “He
is actually the… Superman. He is really strong, you know? He just broke the
chain and got inside my heart. Didn’t even ask permission. Just barged in. I
tried my best to keep him away, but, how can you fight Superman, right?”
Kirstin smiled big to Ashley.
             “Well, you can’t fight Superman. He’s way too strong and way too
persistent. And not to mention handsome. He won’t give up that easy. When he
really wants something, he has to have it.”
             “Hm… Interesting that you know Superman so well.” Kirstin played
serious.
             “We’re close friends, I guess you can say.” Ashley grinned at
Kirstin and pecked her lips “But seriously, K, what do you say you tattoo
something over it?”
             “Hm… I guess that’s sounds about right.”
             “Yeah?” Ashley asked.
             “Yeah… Or… Nah… you’re too much of a wuss to do that.”
             “Hey! I’m no wuss! What is it?” Ashley poked her side.
             “I was gonna say that I can tattoo something over, unless you
tattoo the key to this lock.”
             “So, I’d be the only one with the key. To your heart.”
             “That sounds like… cheesy, doesn’t it?” Kirstin giggled.
             “Yeah, kinda.” Ashley chuckled “But I think it’s a good idea.
I’ve always wanted to get a tattoo. Maybe that’s what I should tattoo.”
             “Ok. But just think some more, alright? If you don’t want to, I
can tattoo something over, no problem.”
             “No, I want to now.”
             “Ok. Your decision.”
             “Good. Then I’m getting a tattoo.” Ashley smiled.
             “Are we leaving tomorrow?” Kirstin changed the subject.
             “Yeah. Tomorrow night.”
             “Bus again?” Kirstin didn’t sound too excited.
             “Yep. We’re going to Salt Lake City by bus.”
             “Ok. Can we sleep now?”
             “Yeah, sure. Let’s sleep.” Ashley turned the lights off.
             “Goodnight, Ashley.” Kirstin cuddled.
             “Goodnight, K.” Ashley said and placed a kiss on Kirstin’s forehead.

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~*~ Chapter 42 ~*~

    DENVER, CO – HOTEL – MAR. 31th, 2002 – SUNDAY

             Kirstin stretched. She didn’t feel Ashley beside her, so she
opened her eyes. When she didn’t see him there, she looked at her wristwatch
  11:30 a.m.
             “Wow… 11:30 already? That’s what I call sleeping!” Kirstin
yawned and took the phone “Hello? Hi, this is from the room 1608, I was
wondering if you could still send me breakfast. Oh, you can? Great. Thanks.”
Kirstin hung up the phone and headed to the bathroom to wash her face. She
could hardly open her eyes.
             When she got back to the room, she noticed an envelope on
Ashley’s pillow. She frowned, sat down and opened the envelope, which had
the Hotel’s logo on it.
She smiled lovingly when she read saw Ashley’s handwriting.

                         Close your eyes.
                         You’re beautiful when you’re sleeping
Tonight may all your dreams come true.
It’s so nice to hold you while I’m sleeping
When I’m dreaming of you.
And what we’ve got is something special,
And what we are is a perfect match.
And 3,000 miles could never come between us,
No matter what we do it’s always me and you and
It’s always me and you.
I know sometimes it’s lonely while you’re sleeping,
Well, it’s lonely for me too.
It’s alright, just know that while I’m sleeping
That I’m dreaming of you.
And what we have is something special
And what we are is a perfect match,
And 3,000 miles could never come between us,
No matter what we do we always have the stars
To wish upon from where I’m at
And where you are.


Kirstin slowly folded the piece of paper and placed it back inside the
envelope. She wiped a tear away from her face and smiled at the letter. How
could Ashley be so great to her? She couldn’t understand how she deserved a
man like Ashley, who loved her so much like he did. And she couldn’t
understand either how she could love him so much.
A knock on the door woke her up from her thoughts. It was her breakfast. She
ate it while reading Ashley’s poem again.

After eating her breakfast, Kirstin had decided to try that mud bath in the
hotel’s spa. Now it was 2:30 p.m. and she was getting back to her room.
“Hey!” she greeted when she entered the room and saw Ashley on the phone.
“Hey! Where were you?” Ashley hung up and trailed to her direction.
“At the spa. I tried that mud bath.”
“Oh, yeah? And how was that?” Ashley asked with a smile.
“Oh, heaven.” Kirstin collapsed on the bed “Just… heaven. I’m so relaxed
right now. I sure needed that.”
“Good.”
“Oh!” Kirstin got out of bed and hugged Ashley tight.
“What is this for?” Ashley asked, smiling down at her.
“Your wonderful, beautiful poem.” Kirstin smiled up at him.
“Oh, that. Don’t mention.”
“It was perfect, Ash. Really. Perfect.” Kirstin kissed him softly on the
lips.
“Thank you. I’m glad you liked it. It’s all true, you know?”
“I do. And I loved it.” Kirstin kissed him again, but this time more
passionate.
“Hm…” Ashley groaned. Kirstin smiled and pulled back “Good.” Ashley licked
his lips.
“Do you have more work to do today?”
“Yes. As a matter of fact, I do. What time is it?” Ashley looked at his
wristwatch “2:45. We’re leaving in an hour.”
“Who were you calling to when I got here?” Kirstin asked, entering the
bathroom.
“My mother. Just wanted to tell her again that we’re getting there in 4 days
”
“Oh, ok. And Ash…” Kirstin emerged from the bathroom “How many days are we
staying in Redding?”
“Oh, the good part is that we’re taking a break after the Redding concert.
So we have 5 days in Redding. Dan will go with Jacob to San Diego and Erik
will go with Trevor to Rancho Cuccamonga. You and I are staying in Redding,
meeting the guys afterwards in New York.”
“New York? Nice! I miss home already.”
“I can imagine that.” Ashley sat on the bed and Kirstin sat beside him.
“When is this charity event?” Kirstin asked him.
“Hm… If I remember correctly, it’s on the 6th. Saturday.”
“Alright.” Kirstin nodded.
“You still don’t feel like going?” Ashley asked, taking her hand in his.
“Yeah… not really.” Kirstin half-smiled up at him “But that’s just silly me
”
“K, we’re gonna be together. Don’t worry. Nothing is gonna happen. Come on!
We’re all grown ups now!” Ashley was trying to change Kirstin’s mind about
the event.
“I guess… But still, I don’t like Harbor that much. Don’t know if I wanna go
back there again.”
“K, what are you afraid of? It’s just school. And it’s Harbor, not that
other highschool you went to. You didn’t have bad years in Harbor, did you?”
“I guess not. I mean… I met you. Nothing bad happened when we were together
”
“See? So there’s nothing you should be afraid of. Everything will be fine.”
“I guess…”
“It will. You’ll see…” Ashley pecked her lips gently.
“Ok, then.”
“Come on. Let’s have lunch before I leave.” Ashley pulled Kirstin’s arm so she’d
get out of bed and exited the room.

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~*~ Chapter 40 ~*~

    CHICAGO, IL – HOTEL – MAR. 21TH, 2002 – THURSDAY

             Kirstin dropped her bags on the floor and collapsed on the huge
king size bed. Ashley just watched her.
             “I can’t believe this hotel! It’s awesome! Look…” she grabbed a
folder that was laying on the nightstand “They have a spa in here! With
massages, bubble baths, mud baths. Mud bath! Wow!” Kirstin exclaimed all
excited about this glamorous life she was just discovering. Ashley just
looked at her with a big smile on his face “What?” Kirstin asked Ashley
after placing the folder back on the nightstand.
             “Just looking at you all excited over little things like mud
baths.” Ashley lay next to her on bed.
             “Oh, sorry if you’re used to such things as mud baths. But from
where I come from, we don’t usually have mud baths at our services.” Kirstin
turned, supported her head with her right hand and smirked at Ashley.
             “Well… you’re gonna get used to it pretty soon, because you’re
traveling with me a lot more times now.”
             “Well, don’t mind if I do get used to mud baths.” Kirstin pecked
him on the lips “What are you doing today?”
             “Hm… don’t actually know. I didn’t get our schedule yet. Could
you wait here and I’ll go to Mike’s room to get it?”
             “Yeah, sure.”
             “Good. Be back in a sec.” Ashley pecked Kirstin on the lips and
exited the room.

             After a while, Kirstin stretched and got up off the bed. She
walked up to the window and pulled the curtains open. It was raining. And it
was actually freezing outside.
             “That’s Chicago.” Kirstin sighed and shut the curtains.
It was Kirstin’s first time in Chicago. She had never actually been to any
other state besides California and New York. Now she was probably gonna see
a lot of cities and states traveling with Ashley. O-Town was going on an
almost one month preview-tour to promote their second album.
Kirstin retreated to bed and got the remote control from the nightstand,
turning the TV on. She stopped at a ‘Three’s Company’ rerun.
“Hey, you’re never gonna believe it!” Ashley said as soon as he got inside
the room.
“What?” Kirstin sat up, intrigued.
“We’re going to Redding in…” Ashley checked the schedule again “15 days!”
Ashley looked up at Kirstin and didn’t see the enthusiasm he had in her.
“Oh…” Kirstin lay down again.
“Oh? Oh? That’s all you have to say? Don’t you know what this means?” Ashley
sat beside her.
“That we’re going back to our hometown? Yay!” Kirstin faked a smile.
“Yeah, but… Not only are we gonna be back to our hometown, but…” Ashley
frowned “Didn’t you get the letter?”
“What letter? What are you talking about?” Kirstin frowned too.
“From school!”
“What school?”
“Our school! Harbor High?” Ashley was surprised Kirstin hadn’t gotten the
letter.
“Why would Harbor send me a letter?” Kirstin still had no idea where Ashley
was going.
“Well, there’s gonna be this event. Charity Event. And everyone that
graduated from 1995 to 2000 was invited. You really didn’t get the letter?”
“No… well, they don’t have my New York address. Maybe my mum got it. But
again, she’s moved to another house like… almost a year ago. So she probably
didn’t get it either, because she didn’t say anything to me.”
“Oh… I see… but… do you wanna go?”
“I don’t know, Ash. See all those people again? Not exactly my idea of a fun
night.”
“Come on, Kirstin! It’s gonna be fun!” Ashley played with her hair.
“Yeah, for you, maybe. Because now you're gonna show off to these people,
show them you're a big pop star. But not me. They won’t even remember who I
am. Unless we come together and then they will point out and say ‘Look! That
girl is still glued to Ashley just like she was during highschool.’ No,
thanks. I think I’ll pass.” Kirstin returned her gaze to the TV.
“Come on, K. They won’t say that. You’re not being reasonable here.”
“I’m not being reasonable?” Kirstin raised her eyebrows at Ashley “Come on,
Ash, seriously. Who was I friends with? Just you and…” Kirstin turned to the
TV again “Jared.”
“See? There’s Jared! Don’t you wanna see Jared?” Ashley knew the answer to
that question already.
“Yeah, right.” Kirstin sighed. Jared was Kirstin’s friend for a while, but
then he misunderstood Kirstin’s friendship and tried to kiss her one night.
After that, Kirstin and Jared hadn’t actually maintained their friendship
“And he’s probably a mad scientist now.”
“Yeah…” Ashley smirked. Jared was kind of strange. Not a geek strange, just
a really hard studier and really quiet “But, come on! We have to go! And if
you do go, you’ll get to show off your new pop star boyfriend!” Ashley poked
her side.
“Stop it!” Kirstin asked, trying hard not to laugh “It’s not funny!” Ashley
wouldn’t stop it and eventually she gave in, laughing a little “What’s this
stupid charity event for anyway?”
“I can’t really remember. It’s for underprivileged children and I think
special children too. Harbor has a program for those kids now.”
“Oh, really?”
“Yeah. So…” Ashley poked Kirstin again “You’re going, right?”
“Urgh…” Kirstin hit his hand “What choice do I have?”
  “None. So, you’re going! Great! It is gonna be so much fun.” Ashley kissed
Kirstin’s cheek.
“Yeah, right.” Kirstin just sighed and crossed her arms across her chest.
“Listen, now, about today. We have a radio interview and that’s all.
Tomorrow, we have a concert in a fair and a meet and greet afterwards and
then we’re off to…” Ashley checked the schedule that was lying on the bed
“Indianapolis. Oh, Dan’s gotta be thrilled.” Ashley grinned.
“Why?” Kirstin asked.
“His family is meeting him there.”
“Oh, nice.” Kirstin grinned “It seems like a nice place. Indianapolis.”
“It is. You’re gonna find out in two days.”
“Two days? But you said we’re leaving tomorrow.” Kirstin frowned.
“Yeah. But we’re going by bus, so that’ll take a while.”
“Bus? Oh, God.” Kirstin rolled her eyes.
“I know. You’ll probably get no sleep, but when we get to Indianapolis, you
can sleep the entire day. Sorry.” Ashley said. He knew Kirstin had a back
problem and sleeping in the bus wasn’t gonna be good for her back. But he
couldn’t do anything about it.
“That’s alright. I’ll manage. The important thing is that you’re here with
me.” Kirstin pecked his lips “Ash, this is gonna be fun, right?”
“Of course! I promise you that.”
“Good. Because I need to… you know… get my mind off things right now and…”
Kirstin got cut off by Ashley’s lips on her.
“K, I’ll make sure your mind is off things. I don’t wanna see you hurt again
  We’ve been through too much this last week and we don’t need that right now
  I love you and I’ll take care of you. I know you won’t forget things that
easy. And I’m getting used to your mood swings already.” Kirstin half-smiled
and Ashley continued “So, don’t worry. When this tour is over, our lives are
gonna be completely different. Promise you that.” Ashley smiled big into her
eyes.
“I believe you.” Kirstin smiled at his eyes too.


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