'Hell is Every God Damn Thing.'
- Alan Dubin, KHANATE


It feels like a very long time has passed since i last wrote a monthly
update. The sensation of catching up with the present can be jarring,
but perhaps it's best to see it as an opportunity for personal progress.
The changing of seasons is a good time for new beginnings and stepping
forth onto a different path, adjacent to but different from that upon
which one has been taking up to this point.

Admittedly, at the moment i'm having some difficulty pinpointing exactly
what it is that i'd like to explain here, while knowing full well that i
do feel a need to share certain things with those who may be interested.

One major reason for the lack of an update in the month of may has to do
with a general lack of musical activity here, and a lack of new
information that bore sharing. i spent a couple of weeks completely
reconfiguring my recording setup in order to maximise space and to
facilitate an entire new wave of recordings. sadly, this has yet to come
to pass. mark kammerbauer (FRAGMENT KING) visited with me for some days
in mid-may, and we spent an afternoon working on some material, and it
did produce a single 25-minute long piece to be released under the love
is nothing. name, but nothing further has come out of that session... yet.

In the time since the last monthly update, i was also drawn into an
argument regarding the ever-exasperating file-sharing issue. for weeks
this became a particularly looming aspect of my daily life, involving
conversations and debates spread across several blogs and message
boards, and conversations in real life as well. i've reached a point now
where i feel inclined to simply remove myself from the discussion, if
only for the simple fact that the arguments posed by the other end of
the discussion are so impossibly devoid of validity, it is essentially
futile to attempt to explain why, because they believe in their own
bullshit so strongly that it constitutes their reality. there is no
point in wasting my energy on them any more than i have.
The argument has also instilled me with a sense of futility, as i
question my motivation for continuing the efforts that have brought me
into this arena.

Over the past two years, i've been beset with what has seemed to be an
endless nightmare of disappointments, failed relationships, foiled
plans, and the person i have been seems drastically alien to the person
i am now in so many ways that it's as though i am struggling with my own
identity, after having had a very solid concept of the person i wished
to be, just a matter of months ago.

I was slated to start a new job a couple of weeks ago, but in keeping
with the way shit's been going for me, it's now out of my hands and i'm
not sure when i'll be starting work. for the moment i remain in limbo,
and i've developed something of a flat affect, essentially devoid of
enthusiasm for very much at all.

There is a feature on NTT in the new issue of ZERO TOLERANCE magazine
(http://www.ztmag.com), available now.
The writer closes the article by quoting me:
'I'm just hoping to pick up the pieces of my fucking life and move
forward in some way that will allow me to shrug off the old skin that's
been weighing me down.'


1. NTT. BOTTOMFEEDER C45
Delayed for two years for various reasons, NIL BY MOUTH presents
BOTTOMFEEDER.
With BOTTOMFEEDER, Navicon Torture Technologies spins a twisted, noirish
tale of obsession, sexual addiction and perversion.
BOTTOMFEEDER contains a collaboration track with German power
electronics master [BLEED], as well as a collaborative cover version of
the song UP IN FLAMES, recorded with with BAIN WOLFKIND and flame
performer Paula Kaiser. UP IN FLAMES, written by David Lynch and Angelo
Badalamenti, was originally performed by Koko Taylor in David Lynch's
film, WILD AT HEART.
Also included are one previously unreleased track, and an extended
version of the track, BLACK VOMIT OF CONTEMPT, the original version of
which was featured on the ADDICTION cassette compilation released in
2008 by EN.MI.TY RECORDS.

2. NTT. THE GOSPELS OF THE GASH LIMITED BOXED EDITION
I now have my personal copies of the boxsets. I will be selling a
limited number of these and they may or may not include some additional
goodies to make them slightly more personal. i have to figure out what
that might be before making that decision.
If anyone is looking to get a copy directly from me, get in touch by
email: leech (at) aex (dot) org
To keep shit organised, i WILL NOT discuss anything regarding purchases
of this release except via regular email.


That's basically all there is to share at the moment, i guess.

Fuck the ruiners, and this time around that's directed to a pretty
specific cross-section of people. they should all know who they are.