Shalom All
I have lots of news, I am sorry i cannot write each person, place an
individual email of this topic
because of my internet access problems, however, specific details i
will post to individual persons such as very close freinds, who have
posted me emails, and I reply them, and include this text as well.
As you know I went away for 4 days in Cape Town to a conference about
transsexuality and such, and it was a bit different from what i
expected, but I enjoyed it, and I am glad they took me in to be part
of the team in getting things done for Transsexuals around south
africa, which then possibly grow throughout Africa and then globely..
The conference(they call workshop, since workshop is a well known
word for a conference in south africa, it does not have anything to
do with tools and mechanics) was hosted by Gender Dynamix, a non
profit organization. yes as you agree that Transsexuality is not
sexual orientation but gender orientation, but it is supported by
sexual orietated organizations, where it can develope. Alot was done,
alot of planning etc, it was hard to believe that this was real and
not a university project, and I want to take part as long as i stay
in South Africa(i dont know what life is going to throw at me), and
even support it, if i leave south africa, expanding the borders of
Gender Dynamix.
There website (our website) is http:\\www.denderdynamix.org.za for
more details

Liesl is the leader or puppet master if humouresly stated(Robbert's
acronym) for a few giggles, she runs the show and got everything all
organised.. The goals are to let more people around the country
accept transsexuals and respect them as if they were any other
citizen in the country, and be able to get jobs like anyone else..
Gender Dymix provenly qoutes my past expereinces in the documentation
each recieved

"In spite of new legsilation(Sex Discrimination Amendment Act of
2003) trans people who have started transition are still unable to
change their identity documents to reflect there gender.This has
implications for there safety, employment, ability to access grants,
open bank accounts and other essential administration for living."

This sounds like a summery of all i told in my posts since i ever put
my foot online!!!
So me working for Gender Dynamix dedicating my good will, big heart
etc... and power to do the best wat i can , i will do for the
organization.
In the four days we went undergoing planning and discussuions, and
ended up with groups of people doing various projects. My projects
which i need to get completed is the GDX newsletter, Then working on
a podcast which will work together with the newsletter with people of
our project.

4 People I will be working with, as well as rest of GDX (Gender
Dynamix)
I am starting to design the template of the newsletter, so when any
news arrives, i have to work with the others, Liesl has to be
notified first before it goese anywhere...
First i am going to complete desiging the layout, then i will let the
others I am working with including Liesl and board members to look at
it and see if they happy with it, it is the template which one would
just add text and pics etc to it...The others are doing a wide range
of projects.

Eventualy we want the organization to help and support transsexuals,
in gaining work, assistence in medical treatment and shelter in the
futuren which is the goal in the future.

Besides spending indoors working together, I had a fabulous time,
meeting new freinds with many cultures and diversity, it was
fantastic!:-) I only used to communicate by phone or internet with
some of them, but first time i met them face to face , which was
wonderfull, and a suprise, it was one of those best things in my life
that ever happned to me, and i love all of the people who came, and
well if i forgot to hug one, please let me know so i can hug them, i
think i hugged most or all of them, dont remember...if one of them
did not, well let me know, so if ever i see you , i give you a double
hug :-) Also it was the first time i met female to male TS people,
and it gave me a better understanding about them, I am glad i worked
with such lovely understanding people, and i will always treasure
these 4 days in my heart, and use this to remember what i should do,
so i can make a difference, so that we all can make a difference, if
Liesl started GDX from an idea,everyone part of it can make it go
further in some way or another...
Also i have chosen to recieve any calls from people in my region if
they need help in some way or another.

Two freinds i realy grew close to and spent free time together
chatting, hugging etc...It was the best time of my life ever, first
time I was realy loved, hugged and touched, i wanted to cry... but i
cry now as i only could have dreamed to have found people to be so
sential, warm, caring, loving, open similar to myself. One told me to
work on certain things in my life, such as to fully overcome and
fully forgive those who downed me in life... I have been thinking of
what she said very much, and looking at things with new eyes. That if
i reach my pure self, she said i have a big purpose in the universe,
expecialy after all the past events that happned in life where i
would not have been able to be here today. She did make me think
alot. I still do not know my purpose, she said it would appear when i
reach full purity..

I wish i could take them home with me,lol I was very sad to leave
them, one of them i will be working with the project. I was sad to
leave the one i spent the last night with, and wish I could have
spent the night with bothe of them... Now i just miss there arms,
warm hugs and tenderness... I am glad i could share some tenderness
to others...well I did cry a bit my first night back in eshowe,
missing them, and spending airtime on them,lol...if i can just hold
them in my warm arms, and they the same with me... :-) lol first time
i had recieved and given such love and affection.
One of them is a big Fan of Dana International as well, and showed
them Dana's official site, and to link to a Dana forum from my lame
website(full site still been constructed :-( ) and i also going to
let her know and join the Dana Yahoogroups, and tapuz Forum (the
forum Dana sometimes visits) So I also told a few people of Dana
International. She is also a Sandra fan (not one of my best freinds
in spain,lol) but Sandra who does one of my favourite songs "Art of
love" which is my new freind's song too!! :-) I will be sending her
DVD full of Dana thingies on it since she only has 2 copies of "The
Album" and Dana material in South Africa is just not available.The
song just suits me as a person well.

The Description Of Love:
Love is what should make the world go round... it is what unites us,
combines us, breaks all barriers, brakes all pain and
suffering...love conquers all things...Love brings peace, and harmony
and light, warmth compassion, smiles, freindship one should always
let love flow , it cannot be forced, its a force of its own, an
element of the light side of the Force.It is fragile, gentle, but can
be strong, depending on how pure your heart is. When you love forget
all the pain, all the suffering, and let it wash your soul clean, it
makes you forget and forgive. One can choose the way you love each
other by sharing, or hugging, or holding, touching or caring, or
thinking of one, depending on the one you are showing love to, what
way they are comfortable in recieving love and giving it, it feels if
its how one should connect to the universe, and connect to all
sentiant beings.
It opens doors, opens things one never seen before, it enhances the
mind, makes it wider and accept many possibilities, and many
diversities, makes one cry with joy, makes one feel belong to
something.It makes you understand others, love and respect others
more, it makes you sense better, see what others see, hear what
others hear, feel what others feel, in order to help others, so they
in turn make Love grow...its amazing when one thinks how many
barriers one has in ones heart, even when i look into my own, and
work to change them into love slowly iluminating up my own heart,
until one who is sensitive can see the glow come from within and glow
outwards,.. warm and pure and bright.

Then Another thing came out of the meeting, one of the people who are
also in my project is the well known Dr Eve (she doesnt like being
called that, i soon found that out lol) however i mention it in my
post to cover her identity in my message. She has been on
Durban/Natal's radio East Coast Radio often on a monday night i
think... cant remember exactly, but did listen to some of her shows,
when eastcoast radio did not play to much hip hop(since i cannot
stand hip hop, gonna hip hop till you drop kind of thing...) I have
also talked with other people, This woman actualy has been on most
radio stations around the country... and also there was a TV show,
never saw that, since i never been a fan of south african
television... as most people know i like my imaginative sci-
fi/fantasy series or movies uninterupted with commercials...

She asked me to design a website character for her website(not to
sure what her website is, since she did not give it to me yet) But
one can always google it .. DR. Eve website something like that, but
i guese it may be www.dreve.co.za if she has a registered domain.
Well she said i needed internet in order to complete her job task,
but I dont have internet yet (since the company registration with my
father is stalling, latest news i heard, that the lawyers posted it
to the wrong address, and so they reposted it it again to the correct
address) This is Eshowe .... so slow... so sleepy .... you know
things are slow..in the small forest town, the only thing thats
beautifull about it is the forest, thats about it, with a local beer
named after a zulu with blonde hair, birds that sound like crying
babies, the town with a thousand speed humps etc etc blah blah...at
least its different from Cape Town where the rain falls sideways and
the birds fly backwards...and the sea smells fishy (probably from all
the chumming for tourist shark cage watching).

So In order to get the company name registered, I then can register
with a computer supplier to get parts at retail price to avoid the
accumulated VAT and proffit from one business to another, to compile
a entry level PC worth R1000 to get connected and be online, since i
use my PC 24/7 if i am working its C++, work, assignments, typing,
maintanence, playing music, compiling music, compiling video, doing
other programming, learning Linux, website building, drawing
pictures, photo editing, doing 3D graphics etc, if i am not working,
its rendering, encoding mp3s,DVDs,videos,finalizing new song
compositions, burning CDS, DVDs, running defrag, running diskscan,
running virus scan, registry scan, ripping CDs, DVDs etc...(it had a
brake while I was in Cape Town) so no one would be able to use it
for internet... it would always be running...and i dont want internet
to be on my work computer since some websites load shit in registery
and load malacious software on the hard drive which takes a long time
to trace... even if it slips through the fire wall, security settings
etc etc...And my parents would want to use the PC as well for there
internet stuff, and typing... as i have to sacrifice my studytime and
worktime and rendertime for them to type stuff on this PC, as the old
one they dont want to use, since they like the speed of this
one...and the old one i wanted to upgrade the RAM , the RAM cards you
cannot buy anywhere, since its obsolete,and cannot connect to the
internet due to its low RAM, since 128Mbs is required.as stated by
telkom.but CPU P1 is fine, but still needs 128Mbs RAM.

So i had to make arrangements with Eshowe computers , the internet
cafe which i use for internet.. very very expensive.. R60 an hour...
if you faint from reading the price, please fall back on some pillows
to avoid a fractured scull!...lol
It took a day and a half to make a deal, since things work very slow
in the smallville eshowe... The owner of Eshowe computers became a
bit grumpy and sick and tired of me especialy when it was after 7,
which he says its late, but my late time at night is 12 or very early
in the morning like 1 or 2 (like Robbert [a GDX board member] says)..
Contacting DR Eve was a mission, sent out messages, and phoned her,
and only her answering machine replies...+someone who sounded like
her but was not her...lol well eventualy i got an sms reply:-) when
i stated i was uncomfortable with the lack of basic communication ..
that she will contact me sometime about it... and i shal wait and see
the outcome. I understand she has her doctorate hence the DR. in
front of her name... but I also like to do my work proffessionaly was
well, where communciation is essential to get a task done, but not
only done, but done well and properly.

I have acomplete character sketch, after doing a few, this one i am
happy with, but dont know about her...
So she has to comment on it and let me know what needs adjusting,
before i working on the "neat" work.
I have derived this little project plan for it:

Anime/Manga DR Eve website main character
========================================
1) Accepted Internet Deal: (if no): wait until i get my broadband
Internet connection + R1000 or less PC, then continue
(Postive outlook: Less costs, since Eshowe Computer's internet
deal sucks a little)
(if yes): Get started sooner, task
finnieshes sooner, and matter of time, i get my internet
connection.
(Positive outlook: The time to get it done will be sooner)

2) Once either of the above is completed, When doing the "neat" work
Anime/Manga can be done in various methods,
not like 3D characters which realy on DAZ3D or Poser. However, the
method of complection is reflected in the completed
output. Such as methods, software and tools. Once could use Corel
Draw (classic method) or Manga Studio (modern method)
or use Aiko 3(www.DAZ3d.com) or similar and modify it and render
a 3D-type anime like Final Fantasy.(realism method) or
(pre-historic method) drawing the characters, painting them on
paper/comic paper and then scanning them.

3) To get the desired results, speed + quality (includes animation)
comes with extra cost-depending
, such as getting software
Obtain Manga Studio from www.e-frontier.com to purchase or get
free download versions / or search for similar
applications which may be open source.
Also choosing the 3D anime/manga option (realism method)
works best with flash/gif/video.

4) Economy solution: the use of the classic method (Corel Draw) and
prehistoric method, but when working with animation
time is not your freind, works best with still web graphics
(jpeg/png), not flash/gif/video.

5) Research online for alternative software and resources (free/open
source) will reduce costs

6) Best proposed solution: Wait for my broadband connection(saves
waisting money with eshowe computers for obtaining
the necessary software) get Manga Studio and the "neat" version
completed within one week or less, the next week to
make her "freinds", then upload them(jpg)... then a commic strip
can be created then animation
(full 5-10 minute video) rouphly once a month... and so on so
forth etc etc... blah blah and it gets faster the more
I work on it....

7) Contact people for a copy(Manga Studio or similar)... Please
anyone out there who has a copy and not use it , i can repay it for
artwork.

yup thats about it, you can view the character sketch at
www.zananeichan.deviantart.com in recent submissions...

What one can learn from this truelife drama is that: Communication is
essential when working with others, it helps eliminate arrising
suspicions, conflicts, and missunderstandings, which could be
hazardous to the developement of a plan, a project even a freindship,
which can cause it to stall, or even fall apart. I learned this in my
studies with Software Project management, that some form of
communication is essential, to be successfull in a project or work
task. I do apologise that i have internet access problems, and also
that i do not live within Cape Town, as this would have solved alot
effort and problems just like that, and communication would be
easier, but under circumstances one must do what they can with what
resources/communications they have.


Well i dont know what the outcome of that would be only time will
tell, but I would apreciate it if other people out there want
computer graphic rendered portraits of themselves please to come to
me, since i would need the bucks from the portraits to do more online
stuff for Gender Dynamix and as well as keep in touch/upload
art/discuss on forums etc until i get my own internet access, that
depends on the company name story, and contstruction of the R1000 or
less PC.

Also I am still working on the V3 and related figures skin texturing
for the poser figures... have not realy continued yet because i
thaught the Gender Dynamix was of higher priority under my studies,
then DR Eves cutie, then the skinning tutorial.

The time in Cape Town with Gender Dynamix was like a living dream...
magic and love flowed...

Thank you very much
Lotsa love
Danielle
((^_^))